Ignorance is your new best friend... Paramore Fanfiction (WIP)

Paramore Fanfiction

Summary: After a supposed car crash, Josh slips in a coma. Hayley sits on the brink, slipping...
Pairing: Josh/Hayley, Jeremy/Jesse, Zac/Emily (mentions of Chayley and Jenna/Josh)
Rating: T (may change)

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Prologue
Hayley POV

I ran from the car. I ran as far from the car as my tired legs could possibly push me. The tears fell as I sobbed. I was leaving him, and there was no turning back. I fell on the cold soil and broke down, I could see the tiny shack I had promised I would be. It was over. Everything, my life,my memories and his love, over.


Chapter 1
Josh POV

March 2008

I could feel the water bursting through my lungs and I pushed. I held my breath and silently counted off in my head. 1... 2... 3... and I shoved my legs against the windshield. I pushed my head over it and reached for the surface. Reality sunk in, Hayley. I took a deep breath and went back in the murky depths. I tried to reach for her soft hair, her silky skin. Nothing. The word that described my life without her.

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It was May 2nd when I woke up. A year and a week after the incident. My family surrounded me in the hospital and I told them that I was just fine. I really wasn't. My heart ached for the only person it once beat for. Hayley is gone.
The police couldn't find her, or her body whatsoever. She really was gone.

June 3rd 2009
I cried myself to sleep for the past year, and I self harmed... I scarred my ankles, just to get through another day. Jeremy and Zac had convinced me that Hayley would've wanted us to continue making the music we love. I sing in Paramore now, but it really just doesn't feel the same.

We'd lost a lot of our fanbase, since our new songs were all depressing I guess, and I never really brought energy to shows anymore. We were fighting more now than ever and we still toured in our old bus.

Everytime I would wake up in the middle of the night, I would climb up to her bunk and stay there for the night. It felt like she was there with me, I could somehow hear her sing. And in the random searches for cereal in the morning, it was almost like I was expecting her to be there, stirring her cup of tea.

My heart was gone when she was.

Chapter 2
-------- 2 years later

Hayley POV

I told him that I loved him, and just as painstakingly planned, the bright headlights of the yellow truck made me squint. My very first tear fell as the airbags popped open, struggling with the door, I felt the water, not from my eyes, and the world felt dark. The small bright point of light that I once knew I saw was now gone.

I woke up in sweat. I glanced at the clock beside the creaky bed, 03.05; Ben wasn't home just yet, thankfully. I have been gettting those dreams for nights on end. I pulled myself off the bed, receiving yet another creak from the bed.

Peering over the crib, I watched Neil dream. That little boy was an every day and a constant reminder of the man I really loved, love.

Neil is our son, Josh's little boy. I found out I was pregnant a week after my unpleasant escape. That same night, Ben raped me. Ben always thought that Neil was his kid, he would kill me, if not us, if he was ever to find out.

I'm a prisoner in this tiny shack of his, the damp walls and the small dirty rooms made me feel more alone than ever. I clutched the tny locket around my neck, the only thing keeping me from breaking down.

I glanced again at Neil, before I pulled up his timy blanket a little tighter around his neck. Under those pale eyelids were the most beautiful brown eyes Josh had to give to him. I did my best to keep up with Paramore and as far as I could tell, they were doing great. he band went on and Josh was dating again. I was happy for him, having being able to find love after me.

I did my very best to try to convince Neil, secretly, that Ben wasn't his dad, I know he didn't understand me the way would want him to, but it was enough.

Enough for now.

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Chapter 3

Josh POV
~that same day~

I watched Jenna pick her clothes up from the floor, she smiled coyly at me and walked silently into the bathroom. Shit.

An hour later, I ushered her out of my apartment. I went out for a walk that evening, sitting down on a bench on the sidewalk, I caught sight of a locket.

The locket I gave her when I fell in love with her. I quickly shifted my sight to her hands, clutching a smaller hand, a little boy. He was smiling and laughing, he muttered something to her and she picked her up.

I shook my head. Reaching my hand in my pocket, I found my pills, swallowing the pills, I glanced back at the road where I saw her, they were both gone.

When dreams start to look like reality, you want them to leave you alone.


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To Be Continued... :)